Since that day, the Lord has been faithfully showing just how much I put myself first.
"Mommy, I'm awake." Oh, but I want to sleep.
"Mommy, lets race dirt bikes." Oh, but I just sat down.
"Mommy, can we do a craft?" Oh, the mess to clean up.
"Mommy, let's cook!" Oh, the dishes to wash and the floor to mop.
"Mommy, she hit me in the head!" Oh, I don't want to deal with disciplining right now.
"Mommy," (I know we just sat down to dinner, but) "I have to go potty." Oh, will I ever eat a warm meal again?
The selfishness in my heart reveals itself everywhere! I find myself frequently asking the question: But what better thing do I have to do than this work, at this moment? I was not given these three gifts, just so I could spend my days pleasing myself. No, I am to spend my days glorifying God, following His commands. On a day in, day out basis, much of my obedience (or disobedience) to the Lord will be shown through my response to my children. I want to be intentional in my responses, in my giving of myself for their training, in relinquishing my own desires in the name of loving my children and my God. I pray that by God's grace I will put off my selfishness as I put on selflessness. May my heart not merely reflect the depravity of the fall, but may it reflect the fruits of the Spirit that live therein.